Tuesday, February 23, 2010

New lessons...

There's that smirk on all those faces as you continue to speak. It wasn't there when you first stood up and not when you began talking, but soon, slowly their faces light up. You can feel a sweat break down the forehead. YOur voice chokes but you continue to plod along. Soon four of them are smiling at your discomfort, one girl is looking away because she's unable to watch your agony and the last guy's sitting unmoved. You want to kick yourself for being the object of ridicule. You want to be able to talk like a pro and impress audiences. This is a small group of six people, so If you can't talk well in front of them, how the heck can you perform before huge audiences in some distant future. That future where you, along with your comrades, are spreading the word and showing people the way, sharing with them your learnings. That future where you have to appear totally convincing to others. Where you're not supposed to make a fool of yourself. Where you've to inspire others to greatness, so you better become that first.

Yet you continue to blabber, mentally telling the world to gocha hell, 'cause it matters not what other's gonna think about ya. Let them call you a fool, a fool you are. Let them call you a loser if they want to. You're here to tell something today, so let them better hear it or pay attention to your mannerisms if they want to. You'll stand here or somewhere else tomorrow too and continue to talk.

The next available opportunity and again you stand up, but are less nervous now. The quiver subsides, so do the smirks.

The demon's still lurking in the shadows--not totally vanquished. You know that it will die only when you face it. Unafraid. It'll grow in strength every time you shrink back, thinking what the next guy thinks about you. When you let go of that notion, when you detach and say, 'so what?', it's the death knell for the demon.

No, it's not just about public speaking. It's about every fear, every hesitation, every anxiety that has kept you down all the time. Worry about the endresult and you'll remain fucked. As God told the disciple on the battlefield, 'Standup, do it and let the Universe decide the outcome.'

1 comment:

  1. True, it is not about public speaking....it is about being convinced yourself, it is about believing in your Truth. Only then you can overcome the demons of fear and ridicule. Carry on, you will overcome:-)