That suffocating air at Ballal
One summer evening I’m having dinner with a friend at a restaurant.
We are done with the starters and are waiting for the main course. My friend is
about to launch his website...a small but ambitious project, and we are
discussing the details, in between gossiping about all and sundry. A lovely
evening, nice food, great ambiance...the gods are smiling...and suddenly, three
people walk in through the door and slowly walk towards us.
I wish I could capture that moment of terror accurately in
words, but it’s impossible, however much I try. A lot of background story is
needed to explain ‘that moment’ and also bring out all the emotions that ran
their course there. And it’s such a funny and hilarious situation, yet, at that
moment, we were almost shitting in our pants, imagining a whole lot of possibilities.
The people who walked in were not mafia dons or police officers.
In fact, one of them, an elderly man in whites, was one of the gentlest people
I’ve ever known. And the two others with him were elderly people in their
fifties...husband and wife. Regular people, posing zero threat or danger to
anyone! They sat at a table near us and ordered their evening snacks.
To paraphrase...let’s say...the elderly man is a team
leader...and my friend was recently ‘sent out’ of the team, and I’m a bloke who
is still very much in the team. Now here I am, enjoying an evening meal with
that ‘outcast(?)’ friend...and my boss walks in and sits a few tables from
us...and looks around casually, with a sweeping gaze. For all his gentleness,
the boss commands such respect and awe in the team that one gesture from him
can throw you out...or can make the other team members completely shun you!!!
And you’re someone who has recently committed oneself, emotionally and
otherwise, to a dedicated stint in that team.
To say that the air suffocated that evening is an
understatement. I don’t remember what we ate for the main course that day.
We waited for a while, expecting them to finish their food and
leave so that we didn’t have to encounter them on our way out...but they looked
totally relaxed...kinda settled down in their chairs for the rest of the
evening. After some deliberations, we got up and walked casually towards the
door...and, out of obligating, greeted the trio at their tables. Everyone
smiled and greeted one another, spoke gentle words....full of fake social
gestures while carrying exactly opposite thoughts and emotions within. The
lady....she was authentic...perhaps truly spiritual. She turned her face away
grumpily without acknowledging our presence and we walked out, feeling like we
had just walked out of a lion’s den, alive!
Two weeks later I tell this to archana...and she’s horrified. ‘Why
the eff did you go to that restaurant...out of all the thousand eateries in Bangalore,
when you know that He loves that place. Now...apply oil on your body and wait.
You will be called and skinned alive in a meeting’
